another night laying here with the music on hoping that my mind could just go blank so that i could sleep .
Lately i’ve been thinking a lot about you and wondering where you are .. what you’re up to and if everything is what you thought it would be.
Lately you’ve been in my dreams.. except it’s never the good times anymore. It’s mostly just the day you left. Lately i’ve been thinking about all of the things you said when you left.
Lately i’ve been wrecking my brain trying to figure out where it all went wrong. If it was something I did or something I said that made you leave.
Except i’ve been starting to think that maybe you knew you were going to leave all along. That you knew it would end the way it did and you just wanted to see how long you could string me along for.
I don’t know what it is .. but i can’t seem to stop thinking about how it all ended and the things you said. The worst part is.. I never know which time you leaving will replay. Will it be the first or the second .. or maybe the fifth or seventh. I just wish that I could forget them all and wake up without any thoughts of you.
“Anorexia didn’t make you happy. It made you numb. There is a difference.”
“If you’re searching for that one person that will change your life, take a look in the mirror.”
it’s you. (via theba-na-natimes)